The Letter

Well my son calls the other day to tell me he would be sending me a letter and he needed a reply.

The letter and I would like to share my reply. After all this is for the Mothers and lovers and caregivers that will one day face this challenge. Whether you chose to or not. But you will do something like fasting and pray during this time period. Or do you go and ease your pain the best you know how. Or just roll with it and try to pay it off buying and attorney. Choices must be made. All should be thought over, Even the evidence, that your child's being accused of should examine.

Now If you don't remember the blog about my son before. It's titled "The Release".
Here is my reply to his request to say how I was victimized by his chemical use and criminal activity.
Many of us questions ourselves as to whether we have suffered from our children actions. Here can be the underlining causes why developed illness from covering up the pain, and humiliation of their behavior or is it the other people faults. Whatever it is, not only do we need to question the criminal justice system but we need to question ourselves and the environment around us.

The Open Letter:

Dear Malik

May God's Peace and Blessing be with you, As always it is a great pleasure to hear from you.   And the fact that you are working on your self improvement.

All is well with me, plus we all will  be glad for your Home Coming.

Now to reply to your question "how I was Victimized by your chemical use and criminal activity". Well your chemical use I have no knowledge of that. But the criminal activity did hurt.  The money wasted on buying cars after you steal the car. The stealing of money That I saving for you'll future.
Robbing the gas station where I buy gas at. Then the feeling of being a real loser when I had to look in the face of the woman you almost took her life and for what? Drained that what I would feel at the end of all of this.

And the bad part you have missed the greatest part of being a family.  The family out ting and celebrations. And even your grandparents passing. Just to say the least.

At first I felt it was all my fault. After all I left your cheating father. But I could not have lived a lie for a life.
                           to be continit

A very Special Mothers Day to all the mothers and Lovers and Care Givers of Felons.

May you take some time out of this day to show love to yourself.

Treat your self well amd remember to Smile.

HAPPPY Mothers DaY!

Release.

It's been a while since I could deal with my thoughts, emotions and what else I was going through!


My oldest son caught a case once again. Well, of course, he being my child, I had and have to deal with the emotions of is he guilty or not. And when he tells the story he will always be innocent. Even though the courts have videos to say different.

Well, my point for writing this is to get out into the universe in order for me to release. To speak to other mothers, lovers and caregivers of felons. For the others, that might be going through the same thing. Plus taking the chance to see where is the positive in all of woes and worry of this matter. And the lessons I've learned from all of this. And my healing, to say the least. The stress of this matter can bring about dis ease.  If not dealt with properly, through proper diet. exercise the very things the wellness guru tell us to do.

However. with me reading over the charges against him. He sure didn't make look like a martyr.
And once again I am feeling like a loser.  And blame myself for all the reasons, one of not having enough money to live in a better neighborhood. Plus, what was my role in this matter? Victim or advocate? Since your love, one has made a choice either right or wrong. And now it is your turn as to how you will process the situation.

As a mother of a felon, I chose to not see myself as helpless or powerless. But as a crusader dealing with the life situation that I must face and others. We are not our children. For they have lives that they must live. And experiences that only they can go through. For there are lessons that they must learn.

Cause when I go over the situation he had placed his self in. I have to throw my hands up and thanks the invisible force that was with him that day the cops pulled him over in riot gear, with shots guns. For he could have been in that number of young black men shot by the police, unarmed.
He had no drugs or guns, in his possession.

But the police did have the evidence videotapes with him and the police informant. So he being guilty will be guilty as charged. They have it all on tape  However there are laws dealing with the use of video in making a case against a person. I was just surprised in the fact the casino that brought the charges against my son was allow three-time to come back with the actual tapes. Did you know that the taping of one voice is not allowed? See VideoUniversity website for more information and other articles at: http://www.videouniversity.com/articles/video-surveillance-laws/

Do the system prey on the weak and foolish with the temptation of a Good Life. Or the weak and foolish are their own Ermine's? For thinking that in the drug game, that there is a fortune to be had by them that take part in it?

However, as the one concerned with the situation like this, you can look at the transcripts of the charges. They can be found at the Clerk of Courts office.

Thanks for your time in this matter. What do you think or what have you experienced?

Right to work, in Wisconsin or not?

MOTHERS OF Felons had chance to talk Governor Scott Walker.

In a brief conversation with the Governor Walker. A question was asked “If your vision is to move Wisconsin Forward what about the felons getting Pardons. Since “According to census data compiled by the Employment and Training Institute at the UW-Milwaukee in April, 12.8 percent of the state's African American men are behind bars — twice the national average and well ahead of second-place Oklahoma, where 10 percent of black men are incarcerated.”Read more: http://host.madison.com/news/local/writers/steven_elbow/bbc-looks-at-wisconsin-s-highest-in-nation-incarceration-rate/article_b1af2c4a-eb50-5ef8-afd3-51eb3c12af82.html#ixzz2s1FqDCpd

Last week also, in the President’s state of the Union address. The president put in place the Opportunity Act. That would help the unemployed to find work and train and the underemployed to get a pay raise that are working for federal contractors. So like the president, that is working to get Americans working again. The Governor Walker wants to move Wisconsin Forward, is his motto.

Yet, in this great state of Wisconsin, the Governor is not doing any pardons. Thus, locking out a population that cannot get food stamps, federal aid to return to school, nor public housing and often time denied jobs because of records. My grandmother had a saying “if a man do not work he will steal.”

Let’s assist Governor Walker in taking another look at not doing Pardon. Buy calling his constituent line at (608) 266-1212 or writing his office http://walker.wi.gov/content/contact-us to tell him we want all that is able to work, work. 

Register your voice on this matter. So Wisconsin can move forward as one, instead of some.

Jurisdiction. Does the court you are in have it?

Motion of Discovery and inspection of evidence

HapppY New Year

As, we all watch this year comes to an end, and the new one is soon to come. I would like to say Thanks to all that have taken time out to read my blog.

I pray that I have not wasted your time. But have brought ideas and thoughts for change to make life better for all.

It is my hope as I journey on this trip of learning more about the justice system and myself. That I make the changes that need to be made in me to give to myself, family and community the best of all that I have to give. In, both words and deeds. Let my words be truthful and useful as I share my thoughts.

It is my hope and dream that as we all travel on the road of dealing with the criminal Justice system that we take a look not only is justice being served. But the part we play in the system. Are we contributing or a contributor?

The effects having a love one come back home? And being ready if the ties were broken?

In the coming New Year, I hope to bring and support changes. Empower the ones whom need an ear. Explore new ideas for change. As we now witness the many that are getting new trails for crimes that they were found guilty of. But were in actually were innocent of the crime.

Let us all not turn our heads or even try to bury them when we hear a crime has been committed. But find the truth and the real truth and face the challenges that may come along with it. After all it is our self esteem and love ones that are at stake in this challenge.

So a Happy New Year to All! May we learn to accept the things that have gone wrong. Bring change to the laws that are wrong. And empower one and all to stay strong and get through the mess if need be.